You're beautiful, strong & deserving

As I've grown up, I've realized that not everyone is there to stay. Not everyone is going to cheer for you when you're at the top and not everyone is going to stay when it gets hard. I've said this before but if you want to learn who truly is there for you, have a baby. I thought that the hardest part of being pregnant unexpectedly was going to be during my pregnancy and shortly there after. I figured, surely this gets easier. Surely I'll figure this out... HA.

It doesn't have to be a baby that changes things for you. It could be a marriage or a bad habit you finally kicked. Whatever the situation and where ever you're at in it, just know that it doesn't get easier, YOU GET STRONGER!

This past month has been pretty chaotic for me... in the worst way. I was crying to my mom the other night asking her, why do I STILL have to deal with this kind of stuff. "Stuff" as in bullshit that I didn't think I'd continue to see come up in my life as I got older. But here we are... eyeballs deep in BS.

Losing friends, sucks.

Dealing with grown up problems, sucks.

Your 2 year old slapping you because she's mad, SUCKS.

But ya'll, this isn't a pity party! Old Madison would get all in her feelings and shut off from the world until the problems just "disappeared" but new Madison deals with problems head on until I scare the problem away.

As I'm growing and learning, I'm realizing not everyone else is growing and learning with me. Everyone is at different stages of their life and all you can do is love them where they're at and m.o.v.e o.n. If they want to come with you, great. If not, bye.

Don't let something that is out of your control poison your day or life. SO WHAT you got a flat tire, deal with it & move on. SO WHAT your cruise got cancelled (@me), deal with it & move on. When you sit back and look at the great scheme of things, ask yourself "will this matter in a year?" If not, don't waste your energy on it. If it will, then cry about it for a day then boss tf up and figure that shit out.

God has shown me over and over that He will not give me more than I can handle. Trust me, I've felt like there is no way I can overcome some of the situations I've had to deal with but after I have my meltdown, I sit back, write out all the possibilities, pray and tackle the issue one day at a time. As you grow, you understand what deserves your energy and what doesn't. And ya'll, DON'T GIVE ANYONE OR ANYTHING YOUR ENERGY IF THEY DON'T DESERVE IT. You're beautiful, strong, and deserving!!!! Believe that for yourself and you'll see the way you handle life's biggest problems will totally change.